Wednesday, March 31, 2010

expected

finished chemistry test today..expected...my chem die ler...i am here because of it...and yet this is what i can do...GOD~~
just know YK ask me going to quit or not...haiz...heard many ppl said about this recently...no matter how..i will continue....no matter which road we take...we may met a lot of challenges...as long as we stand still...i believe we will approach it some day...just keep on it...cheer up...
erm....something....since decided already..then dont want to think already...dont want jump into it again and again...wakaka...2pm's song...this song nice^^
today just rest....dunwan do anythg...reli...dunwan think anythg

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

get shocked

wow...i was getting shocked by myself....so fast i chg my mind and made the decision...no matter what...i also wont change...FINAL DEcision!!
trouble..please stay away from me..i try to control myself not to go near you...why u alwaz come find me?dont want trouble.....
OH god..2mrw chem test...i stil bloging here...am i killing myself now? but feel want to say out...just no one i feel comfortable to say....i tell u..my diary^^ u r my 2nd BFF!!
wakaka....cheer up....improve myself...to my way..although i cant see you clearly now..but i will reach u someday...the way i want....
but now..study for chem 1st!!! wish for luck^^

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Crap

wake up in the early morning..but dunknw wat to do and i am lazy...so just playinf facebook game...until now...so boring....since i didnt blog here for a long long time..so just come here...^^
feels like want to find someone to talk...but i realised i can find no one...>.<''
why? i tot i gt lots of frens..but why i just tell them? o i worry that i disturb them??haix....
feels like my brain was fulled of grasses....so useless....why i cant do things nicely? and the assignment, test....i did it badly...sometime is careless..hey man...did u said u will take every chance to improve urself?but then u just waste it again and again....anyway..i still hope i can do better in test 2...feels that i being nervous for the exam...No no No...Nervous go away~~~!!

since come to degree...i alwaz get disappointed for my result....maybe i am stupid...or i am not hardworking enough? i try to go out less....i still dunknw where is the problem...although i always said that i shouldnt be here..but since this is my own decision...no matter how..i still will go through it...just 4 yrs....i hope i can survive....everyday should be a happy day rite??
Good morning....XD

怎么开始忘了

like tis song recently...share with you...maybe i should rmb that i still can smile too.....
怎么开始忘了
  词曲: 林隆璇 演唱:林隆璇 张芸京
  (林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
  情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
  隐密到最后 在我失去了以后终于懂得
   追梦若是片宽阔天空 只是我从没抽离过
  (张)吉他那么重 我已无力去弹奏
  不想作什么 谁能陪我清唱那首歌
  不是我不 懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
  那些认真的美好都一闪而过
  (林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
  (张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找
  (张)自己的生存之道
  (林)慢慢释怀才能让自 己变好
  (张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
  (合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  (林)该如何去面对
  (张)那不重 要
  (Coda)
  (林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
  情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
  (张)不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
  (合)那些认真的美好都一闪而过
  (林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
  (张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找 自己的生存之道
  (林)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
   (张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
  (合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  该如何去面对
  (张)那不重要
  (林)那 不重要~HO WO~
  (林 张)怎么开始忘了 我(你) 还能微笑
  怎么开始忘了 你(我) 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色 的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找 自己的生存之道
  (合)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
  朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
   流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  该如何去面对 那不重要
怎么开始忘了
词曲: 林隆璇
演唱:林隆璇 张芸京
(林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
隐密到最后 在我失去了以后终于懂得
追梦若是片宽 阔天空 只是我从没抽离过
(张)吉他那么重 我已无力去弹奏
不想作什么 谁能陪我清唱那首歌
不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
那 些认真的美好都一闪而过
(林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
(张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找
(张)自己的生存之道
(林)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
(张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
(合) 流言传来传去 不知何时平息
(林)该如何去面对
(张)那不重要
(Coda)
(林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
情 绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
(张)不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
(合)那些认真的美好都一闪而过
(林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
(张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找 自己的生存之道
(林) 慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
(张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
(合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
该如何去面对
(张)那不重要
(林) 那不重要~HO WO~
(林+张)怎么开始忘了 我(你) 还能微笑笑
怎么开始忘了 你(我) 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩 笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找 自己的生存之道
(合)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去 不知何时平息
该如何去面对 那不重要
怎么开始忘了
  词曲: 林隆璇 演唱:林隆璇 张芸京
  (林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
  情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
  隐密到最后 在我失去了以后终于懂得
   追梦若是片宽阔天空 只是我从没抽离过
  (张)吉他那么重 我已无力去弹奏
  不想作什么 谁能陪我清唱那首歌
  不是我不 懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
  那些认真的美好都一闪而过
  (林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
  (张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找
  (张)自己的生存之道
  (林)慢慢释怀才能让自 己变好
  (张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
  (合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  (林)该如何去面对
  (张)那不重 要
  (Coda)
  (林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
  情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
  (张)不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
  (合)那些认真的美好都一闪而过
  (林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
  (张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找 自己的生存之道
  (林)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
   (张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
  (合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  该如何去面对
  (张)那不重要
  (林)那 不重要~HO WO~
  (林 张)怎么开始忘了 我(你) 还能微笑
  怎么开始忘了 你(我) 还有心跳
  (合)那些黑色 的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
  我们还在找 自己的生存之道
  (合)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
  朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
   流言传来传去 不知何时平息
  该如何去面对 那不重要
怎么开始忘了
词曲: 林隆璇
演唱:林隆璇 张芸京
(林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
情绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
隐密到最后 在我失去了以后终于懂得
追梦若是片宽 阔天空 只是我从没抽离过
(张)吉他那么重 我已无力去弹奏
不想作什么 谁能陪我清唱那首歌
不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
那 些认真的美好都一闪而过
(林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
(张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找
(张)自己的生存之道
(林)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
(张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
(合) 流言传来传去 不知何时平息
(林)该如何去面对
(张)那不重要
(Coda)
(林)琴键那么重 我用技巧去弹奏
情 绪那么浓 我该用什么去快乐
(张)不是我不懂 拥抱之后总是难以去承受
(合)那些认真的美好都一闪而过
(林)怎么开始忘了 我 还能微笑
(张)怎么开始忘了 我 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找 自己的生存之道
(林) 慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
(张)朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
(合)流言传来传去 不知何时平息
该如何去面对
(张)那不重要
(林) 那不重要~HO WO~
(林+张)怎么开始忘了 我(你) 还能微笑笑
怎么开始忘了 你(我) 还有心跳
(合)那些黑色的玩 笑 没有受伤不会好
我们还在找 自己的生存之道
(合)慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去 不知何时平息
该如何去面对 那不重要

OMG

T.T
what happened to me? i also wish to know..although i ask myself not to think anymore...but i just think of it...oh God...just help me to escape from this....i need to run away....always cool....
hope i will be better after home and stop the silly action and thinking anymore!!! more and more i found about the bad thing of myself..when can i change it...pls....dun do it anymore....
wednesday just finished my ICE test..did it so badly like no word can describe....i got no more feeling to it.....just used to be....
yesterday teck wei help me to solve the dynamic assgnment...so pro he is...thanks teck wei although u may not see this...hehe...spent the whole day with them...attended the engineering analysis class...what the lecturer talking there....cant imagine what will happened to me when its my turn to take this subject...and thanks to Loo who borrow me his test paper...hehe

2mrw will be the day for me to home...no matter how sad am i now...i will take it....strong heart^^

Sunday, March 21, 2010

my day

wow...tomorow will be ice test bt i still blogging here..nw is the early morning on monday....wake up at 4.30....dunknw y sudden awake...maybe dream something....no mood to study ice...haix....clean my table 1st...hope i can do better everyday^^

what the things is happening now?

long time didnt blogging....as busy with my study....really tired...no time to think anything...
just sudden saw something....really angry..i just forgot..but it reminded me of the thing anymore...anyway...if u dun wish to tell me or anything..just fine for me....i wont care for you anymore...dont make me like no dignity.....as a fren....i just dont want you to feel bad or sad....you no need do until like this...